Discomfort and Courage, pt. 1

You may have heard it said that growth and expansion must come with discomfort. Expansion, described as starting from a known point, and then using our experience and knowledge to work out how to acquire a new skill or facet of knowledge, this makes sense to me. Reaching out into new unknown territory is awkward and maybe a little fearful. If we look back on our lives and we discover that we have been nurtured and encouraged to have faith in ourselves and our own ability, in spite of possible failure or hardship, then taking those steps forward can be a bit easier.

But what if we have not been raised that way? What if we instead carry some kind of deep rooted self-doubt and anxiety, and the fears that accompany a scenario in which we didn’t have that kind of nurturing, the kind of nurturing that helps us to realize our self-acceptance, self-love and self-confidence? What if we came into this world already holding that kind of lower frequencies of emotions from some previous life?

Then, because of that deep-rooted anxiety and lack of self-worth, rather than enjoying a life of achieving goals, growing, strengthening and expansion, we instead experienced a life of self-doubt, worry and anxiety and adopted years or decades worth of fragmented and disassociated emotions (that feeling of joylessness or emptiness), and adopted a library of limiting beliefs pertaining to how tough life is, or how much of a victim we are, even to the point where such negativity manifests itself in the form of depression, or escapist patterns such as physical addictions or now in our modern age of technology, mental addictions, and has even manifested as dis-ease or illness?

It’s all very well to talk about growth, but what about simple recovery? When you or someone you love is buried under the perception of their own life’s problems, how to come back from that? In some cases, how can you even recognize that you are even in this state? The avoidance patterns can be so subtle and ingrained that it’s possible to not even realize that it is occurring, that you are living this way. The very common occurrence is when you try to finish something, set a goal and try to hit it, or maintain some kind of persistence or discipline like regular diet or exercise.

Have you ever set a goal, worked through it, and achieved it? Have you ever even considered setting a goal?

Years ago I had a reading in which I was described as being very courageous. At the time I couldn’t even grasp that concept. I was no superhero, no mythical or historical protagonist, fighting for a cause. I was a regular guy who was stuck and although I knew I was a being of amazing potential and power, I was failing at everything in my life and had been so since my teen years when it first showed as ‘an unwillingness to apply myself’. I have a big FU for anyone I see talking about a child that way now. But as it turned out, my life was going to get much darker over the next few years.

It took some time and an amazing amount of self-healing before I learned that I could even be courageous, that courage was even an option.

to be continued.